Life Cleanse

Greetings readers!

13585076_10207034586086584_5739101405093143313_oSo, first off, if you have read the other posts that are already on this site then you might notice that this is a very different way of starting my posts. That is because I have decided that because this is more of my blog that my writing voice should sound a little bit more like my own rather than philosophical and enlightened. Am I both of those things? I’d like to think so. However, I don’t normally speak like that.

Second, you’ve more than likely read the title and thought to yourself “What the f**k is a life cleanse?!” (My internal voice curses a lot, sorry if it offends anyone.)

Story time!

Within the last few months I have started working at a chiropractic office as a receptionist and newsletter writer. The premise of the practice and the overall organization that they work for is not only about getting your back into proper alignment, but also about living a healthier, cleaner lifestyle. That means organic foods, little to no toxins, working out, etc. Recently most of the staff did a juice cleanse. I opted out because a) I’m in the process of adding healthy fats into my diet to help me gain weight and the three or so days of only drinking juices would seriously cut into any progress and b) if I don’t have enough to eat during the day I will pass out or be extremely grumpy, not a fun version of Hailey to be around.

On Friday, I had a meeting with my manager there about needing to be more organized and on top of things in the office. I will admit, I cried a little bit. This brought up a lot of my personal insecurities that only lead to feeding my depression, which I have struggled with since high school. (Note to my manager: If you are reading this DO NOT FEEL BAD. I know you might, but I’ve known that I needed to get my life more together for a while and you just happened to say the right/wrong thing at the right/wrong time.)

Needless to say, this has been a weekend of insecurities simply tumbling out in quick secession from disorganization to my severe lack of romantic interests or pursuers to the fact that girls years younger than me are way more successful than me (don’t get me wrong, GO SIMONE BILES!!) . I have legitimately sobbed from reading two Avengers fanfictions.

This got me thinking. What do I need to do to turn my life around?

I decided that my life needed a cleanse. The definition of cleanse is to “make (something, especially the skin) thoroughly clean.” If you don’t know anything about cleaning skin (which I am also trying to cleanse, actually), it’s about unclogging any pores and taking out unnecessary dirt or oil so your skin can breath and be healthy. Instead of my skin, however, I am unclogging the pores of my life by cleansing each part of my life of any clutter or behavior that is keeping me from living my life to it’s fullest potential.

First up, get organized and tidy up.

Behold the madness that is cleaning my bedroom.
Behold the madness that is cleaning my bedroom.

One of the books I’ve recently started reading is “The Life Changing Magic of Tidying” by┬áMarie Kondo. In the introduction, Kondo writes about the order in which you should tidy up using her komari method. You have to know what energy you want then discard before you can truly organize.

You’re supposed to imagine what exact feeling for your home, what you want to achieve in tidying your life and why. I started the cleaning┬ábecause I am still in the process of reading the book, I’m doing things a little out of order. I started with my desk drawer, but, in my defense, I already knew that all of that stuff had to go. Then I sat down and I thought about what I wanted.

My badass ladies! They inspire me everyday to be awesome....and that I still want to learn how to disable a man with my thighs like Black Widow.
My badass ladies! They inspire me everyday to be awesome….and that I still want to learn how to disable a man with my thighs like Black Widow.

Since my home is my bedroom at my mom’s house, I decided that I wanted to make it feel a little like a tiny house minus the kitchen and bathroom of course. I wanted a place I can work and not feel like I have to leave the space to focus and get out of the comfortable, tumblr troll mindset I get into some (most, okay!) of the time. I wanted to be surrounded by the things that make me smile and let my nerdy heart soar when I see them like my little Pop! Bobbleheads of my favorite superheroes or antique typewriter my mom gifted me a few years ago for my birthday. I wanted a neat little area to do my make up and not have to go digging to find my work shirts. I wanted a place that was just for me, no one else. My escape from the world and any drama in it.

After I thought everything, I started going through all of my things and keeping only the things that truly bring my joy. Basically, if it’s a shirt you truly cherish and makes you smile just by holding it, keep it. If it’s a dirty piece of junk

Taking everything out to start the tidying process.
Taking everything out to start the tidying process.

mail that you jammed in your desk drawer for reasons you can’t remember, ditch it. Again, I had already started a little with my desk and organizing my little make up corner. Then, as I was listening to an audio version of Kondo’s book, I came across her instruction to start on your clothes. I immediately shifted gears and took nearly every piece of clothing out of my closet to start going through my tops and dresses.

The mountain of clothes to sort through.
The mountain of clothes to sort through.

Mind you, this is the first serious life cleanse day so everything is still not done. As I am writing this, clothes are still piled it bins around my room, stacks of old notebooks and papers are still waiting to be riffled through to find long forgotten ideas. Clutter still takes up half of my bed. But I can already feel the shift start to happen. In just today, I have filled 4 1/2 garbage bags of trash, 2 bags and a box of things for donations, and one box of things that I think I can sell. My makeup brushes and eyeliners sit in a neat bundle in a little mason jar I got on sale at Target. My lipstick is arranged in an old jewelry box I had.

Then are the other parts to my “life cleanse.”

The first will be time management. After I am done with this post, I will prepare a to-do list and, as my manager calls it, a “war plan” for tomorrow. I have organized my monthly calendar hanging next to my window, complete with days that my bills come in. A weekly calendar is on my door so I always see it coming into my room. I even have a pocket calendar and an agenda so I can get in the habit of writing everything down. I’m going to make more time to write efficiently and this blog, I hope, will be a part of that.

I will also be getting a new computer soon in hopes that it will help me in writing more, especially on the go since I am constantly working.

Next will be emotion and spirit cleanse. This is when I will begin to really pick at my insecurities and work on building my self-esteem along with my own spiritual beliefs. This will probably be more “interesting” part of my cleanse since I’m going to be challenged to see what sticks with me and what will only end up hurting me or go against what I believe to be true in my heart.

Finally, once I’ve started gaining more weight and feel more comfortable in my food choices (a process I have been working on for several weeks now), I’m going to try and do a physical cleanse. One of the other things my manager pointed out to me on Friday is that I rarely do things for myself. I’m constantly worried about everyone else: if they are comfortable, what they think of me, did I say something wrong, etc. I work weeks without a day off, juggling two jobs and my own writing projects along with any film jobs I have the time to fit in.

13765677_10207216581116346_6948757127232388602_oMy physical cleanse won’t just be health. It’s about taking away anything that is physically doing me harm from the way I eat to my lack of fitness and even just pampering myself to reduce stress. I need to sleep right. I need to go out and destress more. Hell, I need to actually remember to wash my face and floss my teeth (seriously though, I’m terrible at flossing).

Atmosphere. Time. Emotion. Spirit. Body. These are the five parts that I have come up with for my total life cleanse. Add to that my desire to educate myself more and my work and it’s going to be an interesting couple of month. And I’m going to write about it all from the achievements to the downfalls. Hopefully, you will join me as I try to turn my life for the better as I turn 24 (September 25).

Until next time.


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